Monday, September 1, 2008

Or Maybe...

Or maybe I'll stop feeling like I have to be so damn competent. Maybe I'll discover that I don't want to HAVE to be the one that does everything, that can do everything.

Maybe I'll figure out that it's ok to be taken care of, that it's ok to just be the feminine me, that there is someone that can do some of the things I have to take care of.

Maybe I don't need to be so damn independent.

Maybe I need to allow someone else to become someone I depend on.

Maybe I just need to allow someone to be part of my life.

Damn, growing up is hard.

5 comments:

Johanna said...

Or maybe... stop thinking so much about your labels, and just be.

xoxox

Mtnhighmama said...

I'm working on that.

But it's a natural part of the reordering of one's life, and I seem to be at that place right now.

*sigh*

Johanna said...

Without a doubt, yours is one of the most interesting journeys I have every witnessed.

And it sounds like you're doing everything just right :-)

Mtnhighmama said...

*snort*

I guess graceful and charming are too much to ask for, so I'll settle for interesting.

ha!

Seriously, Thanks Johanna. From someone I've come to respect and admire, this is a compliment I'll carry for a while.

Johanna said...

After posting your tootsies photo, you cannot possibly say you are not graceful and charming!!! (Especially the one with the stringy hair :-)

Stop beating yourself up, missy!